After today there are only four more days left for the month of January 2007. Where, o, where has my little month gone? January was packed full, and yet, I struggle to think of what I filled it with, and what I accomplished. If truth be told, very little on my mental and written aspirations was completed.
My January must-read is still sitting on our library shelf, with only a portion of chapter one read. And, honestly, I don't want to go further. I'm setting that aside to read Beowulf this week with my kids. So, technically, I'll have squeezed in a single leisure book.
My Bible reading was somewhat forced between other things. (Again, what other things, I couldn't tell you.) However, I am inspired to select a book of the Bible and journal through it; though, I'm not sure if that would count towards Bible reading in general. What I'm somewhat less inspired to do but feel convicted to do, nonetheless, is to memorize scripture. I have such a terrible terrible memory when I'm put on the spot about something. I can say some scripture, or I can pull a book/chapter/vs reference but forget the wording. I *need* my Bible close at hand to check when I speak because the last thing I want to do is misrepresent, you know? But there's definitely a cable in the brain that has a disconnect, and I know that it needs tending to.
Weight loss has been a laugh. I'll eat extremely well, and then one day a week I'm in the vicinity of French fries for like three hours. I'm weak, and self-centered with my food intake. Yesterday, for example...very well portioned bowl of healthy cereal. Lunch, a giant fresh-fruit salad and a small biscuit. A three hour stop over for the kids bowling league, and I'm scarfing down a large thing of fries...with mayo as a dip. Now, I did have a gi-normous glass of water with it, rather than pop. During our supper hour, we attended a home school function where I had three pieces of a quesidilla, three cups of pop, one stick of something (Mexican. Corn tortilla wrapped tightly around chicken and then baked) and two little chunks of cauliflower. Were those the only choices at the party? No, the hostess had cut up melons, but I didn't have those as I "already had fruit" earlier. I'm so dumb.
Health-wise...never took a step towards exercise. The thought did not even occur to me until after bedtime.
Exert personality wise...here's where I shined. I've planted the tender seeds of my own faith-based home school group. I've made several inquiry phone calls, which I hate doing. And, I've stood my ground on two separate occasions to enforce boundaries...boundaries that were already clearly marked...and boundaries I normally (and almost once in this case) would give in on. So, woo-hoo for me! I think that is the step that I'm most proud of. And you know what, ladies? (Since I know women usually dread having to enforce boundaries.) The first case I wrote about on W @ H and received advice, encouragement, etc. about. So, I felt a little more secure in handling it because I had people more or less guiding me or pointing out my instincts were correct. Now, yesterday something else happened...which is too long to go into here...but *SQUASH* it I did and in one blow. I didn't have to be mean, but I was very firm (the only way to have been firmer would have been to cross that mean line, I think). And you know what, it wasn't as nerve racking because I had that first incident under my belt.
Church is something we are still working on...we haven't found a place yet, per say; but, we have found a place we are interested in pursuing a little longer. The next two weeks Franklin will be unable, because of job/schedule, to attend. I hate hate hate attending church without him almost as much as I hate hate hate attending a new place without him. Lucky me, I get both my dreaded moments (*new* and *church*) for the next two weeks. So, Social Anxiety my old foe, it looks as if you are on the do-or-die list for February's aspirations.
So, how am I going to finish off the month of January (aside from things I've already mentioned today)? I am taking the weekend to get the yard in order...not overtly with planting, raking, etc. But it does need some TLC and some decluttering. I'm also going to be baking bread. I might do that today in fact. I wanted to do bake fresh bread every month...and I'm running out of month.