I haven't been on much lately...well, I haven't been on with the purpose to blog or to read blogs. I'm going through something. Something spiritual, that has sapped any "wanting" to write.
I've been busy on my own, creating and laying the foundation for a project. That and preparing for homeschool 2007/2008. With the needs that must be filled for the coming school year, I'll leave behind a lot of people, a lot of activities that we once enjoyed. But, it looks like greener fields ahead, so that does not dishearten. The remainder of this year, I'm pulling our homeschooling inward again. With Maxwell's transplant failing, I have no guarantee that he'll be able to read through the rest of this school year, let alone 2007 in its entirety. We need to take advantage of this time we have, basically.
We've found a place of worship that more closely matches what I feel scriptures ask of us. And while that should make me giddy, there's still something a bit lacking. The worship is right, the teachings however...part of it is me being "new" I'm sure...but the teaching is so far from what is anything a believer needs. Or, perhaps I should not give way to what could be an opening for pride. Perhaps there is something that I've yet discovered as being for my own good.
I had a conversation with another homeschooling mother...one whom I knew many moons ago, and have just recently reacquainted myself with...she and I have such varying emphasis on our faith, that at times it seems impossible for us to have an open conversation. The problem isn't that we disagree, LOL, though there are areas that certainly she and I would draw lines on...but that we agree and our focus is different. The conversation brought to light, however, something that has bothered me greatly about many of the friendships that I've had with other believers. It seems as if there are a lot of faith or beliefs that are assumed rather than backed up with scripture. And these emotional desires seem to, for all intents and purposes, trump what scripture actually demonstrates. I'm becoming disillusioned not because of people's sin, but their arrogance, their smugness in creating, sometimes out of half truths, sometimes out of whole cloth, a convincing theology, that, given some rope, will ultimately lead to the full corruption of the Church. What is sadly amusing, is that those will articulate just that same sentiment against those who are not believers, but who crow about their Christianity anyway.
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