Deeply

I just have to say how deeply I love my husband.  There have been things in the last couple of years that have just put us through the ringer.  And while sometimes those things brought out the worst in me, I have to say, that the aftermath (and sometimes continuing circumstances) just catches my breath about how incredibly stable and strong and ... yes I'm going to say it ... selflessly heroic my man is.

Everyone here knows about his training to be in the police department...and the adjustment everyone made for that...not just with our thinking and our time with him, but in knowing what he is facing every day.  Everyone here has varying levels of knowledge, but at least knowledge of what hurdles, heartbreaks and hopes we have traveled with our young son in the journey to save his eye and then his sight.  A few of you know some more of my personal life (that I will not go into here), especially events that have transpired in the last month...the last week specifically...I would have rather gnawed through my own arm than to go through.  We also have the ordinary struggles with money, organization, etc.  that most couples or individual spouses go through. 

But after last week, I'm looking at him differently.  I love him so so much more than I did the week before.  And the week before I was already at the "no bounds" point.  How is it possible?  How is it possible to already feel something is so complete and to find oceans more behind it? 

Comments

[Carolyn]

I know exactly how you feel. We are in a "good" place now. But I think it took having heart problems and scaring him and me realizing my own morality to come to appreciate "us". I'm not sure what i did wrote in linking the new blog, but its fixed... plus I used the new address here as well. Thanks for visiting. I don't get over here nearly often enough.

[Stacey]

((hugs)) because every day is new.

[zoe]

Oh Jamie, do I ever recognise that feeling. Just this weekend in fact there was a moment of it, and you just look at him with new eyes, like, WOW.